Can I be in love when all I feel is a big twist in my belly. How can I love somebody that continues to lead me on, play hot then cold? Maybe I don't know how I feel.
He continues to play me, want to make plans but not make them true, leave me waiting around, frustrated and angry.
How can I let someone treat me like this, and yet still feel so strongly for him. And every time he sends me a text, all is forgiven again.
I wish so much for him to send me texts again telling me he misses me, he can't wait to see me and how much he likes being with me.
Or is it just a game to him? Is he leaving options, not putting all eggs in one basket? I just wish I knew what was going on in his head. And how I don't believe what he says to me isn't true.
When I saw him last night, he kissed me quickly on the cheek, and wanted to go home. Why didn't he invite me back with him? Why didn't he kiss me on the lips?
He suggested we do something today. And when I texted him asking if he wanted to meet up, he didn't reply.
Left waiting once again.
If only I could figure out why I am so attracted to him when he doesn't treat me right, why I can't seem to get him out of my head when he just calls me on his terms, and why I have such strong feelings from him when I don't even know where I stand with him.
Love. It confuses me. I used to think it could only be love if it was mutual. But maybe it can be different.
Love. It damn well confuses me and tips my world upside down.
It really is a mystery.
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