Mauritius Dreaming

This time last year I was packing my bags and getting excited about my African holiday.

On Christmas Day I landed in Johanessburg and had tucked into a Lybrian Christmas feast before heading out to Mauritius where I would be spending my New Years Eve celebrations.

This year I will be spending it in Sydney despite my vow never to spend another Christmas or New Year's Eve in this city.  I think my parents are happy to have me here though and with my bestie spending New Year's here, it may be a fun holiday period after all.

I think back on the reasons why I didn't want to be here, and it's mainly because of Mister.  The ones that I have celebrated with him have always been mediocre if not sad.  And I guess I didn't want to be here to be reminded of that.

I dream of being on the beach, wake boarding, drinking Mauritian white rum with Orangina and eating the local cuisine.  And the friends that I made there, the nicest people you would meet.  The other Miss A and I made such a stern pack to return there before the end of this year.  My, how life just flies by and before you know it, the pinky promise you made (even with a stamp) is forgotten about.

And to think there are so many other countries I would like to visit, I just hope one day we will keep our pinky promise and head back to the island where we can hang with the locals, wake board, have BBQ's on the beach and just laugh and laugh the night away.

Side note:

I still haven't called Mister.  I am secretly hoping he would call me.  Just to prove to me that he is thinking about me.

Positive thinking does work

Out with the old and in with the new.  Finally got the courage to stop calling Mister, it has been just over three weeks now since we last spoke and even though I still think about him, it is easier for me to bear.

After reading a fellow blogger's page and post about her online dating experience, I got inspired and decided to give the online thing another chance.  So I signed up and trawled through all of my requests, accepting one of them which caught my attention.  All I know was that his eyes got me, sometimes you look at a person and you know that there are stories to be told.

We became Facebook friends and I loved the idea that he has travelled, his online personality was bursting with life and vibrance, and best of all he seemed like he was quirky and funny.

So many people you accept online lack personality, not much more to say after 'How are you. How was your day. What do you like to do in your spare time. What do you do for work.' Snore.

Or else you get guys who will immediately request an MSN or Skype add so that they can send you videos or pics of their dicks.

I'd like to think that this guy was different.  I decided to meet up with him and we made arrangements to meet for drinks in my local area.  Though it didn't start off well.  I didn't hear from him for days and when I sent him a text to see if we were still on for drinks, I didn't hear back for hours.  I had given up and was laying in bed wondering why I even said yes to meeting up.

But in the end the date went ahead and we met up to see if we had a connection, any chemistry.  After a few drinks, we were pashing in the dimly lit bar.  It was fun, and I wanted to.  I hesitated at first and when we did kiss I was surprised at how his lips were so soft, softest I had ever felt, and the way he kissed was the complete opposite to Mister.  Passionate and grown up unlike the boyish kisses and tongue combats I had grown accustomed to in the previous few months.

He dared me to do things I wouldn't normally do, and it sent excitement through my blood like electricity.  We would stand outside of a shopfront and he would kneel down and kiss me on the side of my hip pulling my dress up whilst my hands would try and cover up what the world would otherwise get to see.

Words coming from his mouth were dirty and daring, I wasn't used to it but it made me laugh inside at how naughty someone can get.   I lapped up every dirty complimentary word but would never let it show, keeping my smiles to myself and thoughts of how awesome it felt to be showered with such positive words.

I do sometimes wonder what in world is going on with him though, the wanting to see me again, can't wait to see me again has resulted in nothing but a few messages here and there.

But this was all about me wanting to change my world for the better, stop wishing for something that could never happen with Mister, and it worked.  Even if it was a sleazy one night stand, at least I can give myself credit for being strong enough to finally let go of a wish and dream that could never be.

An update on that list

Turning things around has actually worked for me.  I am not pining over Mister as much, and even though I do think about him, it barely lasts more than a minute or two.

Here is an update on that list and I can happily say that I can tick them all off :)

1. Foodie buddie date - all set for this Saturday.  Growers Markets (yummy!) and then lunch (I am thinking Nasi Lemak)

2. An awesome night out with Jay - I saw her on Tuesday night, we chatted and she told me of some major news... she is packing up and moving out of Sydney.  Saving up and getting rid of her debt, and getting out of advertising.  What a big decision and has definitely inspired me to do the same.

3. A date with Smiz - pencilled in for this Friday night! Though not 100%, at least it's in our diaries and I am looking forward to seeing her as it has been such a long, long time.

4.  Bestie Melbourne catch up - that was last week and it was awesome.  Short and sweet and left me wanting more of Melbourne.  What's not to love about Melbs? 

5. Hair cut - put in for an appointment this Saturday, never been before, but their site looks really good and every time I have walked past, I have always been impressed.

Perhaps the next thing to do is to paint the town red.